I want to feel and know that I’m forgiven and that God still loves me. I am a struggling pornography addict. Many times I have asked God to give me strength to not fall into temptation. But I mostly always do go back into my own ways.. Is this because God isn’t in my life? Please, I need help.
I would suggest spend time reading the Bible and in prayer and in a good Bible believing Church. You are right in believing that salvation isn’t in a building or institution, it is in a relationship with God and Jesus as Lord of your life!
I think we all know that feeling though.
Between the alter and the door.
God wants a relationship with us and it is in our hearts where we need to find God. In both the old and the new Testament we see that God is willing to forgive IF we are willing to ask and sincerely repent. In his sermon that became a book “The Greatest thing in the World”, Henry Drummond talks about love and our relationship with God. There are many hearts that if we read Matthew 7 will not make it past the gates of heaven.
H.D. preached it over a century ago, you may learn from this.
There is only one source of freedom and hope and light in this world, many will try and drag you into the dark with them (and I got dragged there too) and once you truly start down the narrow path you will not find it easy. It is the only path worthy of the effort though!
“A silly idea is current that good people do not know what temptation means. This is an obvious lie. Only those who try to resist temptation know how strong it is… A man who gives in to temptation after five minutes simply does not know what it would have been like an hour later. That is why bad people, in one sense, know very little about badness. They have lived a sheltered life by always giving in.” – C. S. Lewis
“The Christian ideal has not been tried and found wanting; it has been found difficult and left untried.” G.K. Chesterton
Ultimately there is only one source of freedom, not freedom from temptaion but freedom from sin.
31 So Jesus was saying to those Jews who had believed Him, “If you continue in My word, then you are truly disciples of Mine;
32 and you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.”
34 Jesus answered them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, everyone who commits sin is the slave of sin.
35 “The slave does not remain in the house forever; the son does remain forever.
36 “So if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed.
Set me Free – Casting Crowns (LOTR)